Hi everyone!!!
Im back! Just ended my last exam today was it was TORTURES... 1 question have like three parts to it? and I genuinely fear for the teacher. I hope she likes marking otherwise I think she'll probably die from the amount of pages she has to mark.
I felt like blogging about my Long Distance Relationship as some of my friends have been asking how I manage to 'survive' for the past 4 months and thus I thought it would be good to blog about it. (btw this blog post was drafted on 8 may, and I was too lazy to continue till now)
Stage 1 of LDR
Well basically, when Jerome went to Taiwan for exchange, it felt quite normal. At least for the first 2 months i think? okay lah maybe the first week, we were bawling our eyes out every time we Skype.Even though Jerome bought this soft toy thing from craftholic for me to hug to sleep so that i'll always be reminded of him, it didnt work. It was kinda bad still...and it got better from the 2nd month I think? like that was when I was busy studying for miderms and Runners Club and life goes on as usual.
Stage 2 of LDR
This is when the fights come in... Quarrels start for no reason (okay lah sometimes, it is caused by me). It's like sometimes I will see pictures of Jerome traveling/eating good food/ having fun overseas. I did felt a little sad. Its like I feel a bit left out I think? I felt really down that I was not able to share these experiences with him. Its almost like, i felt that he has forgotten about me...Yea, so we started to quarrel unnecessarily. skype calls and messages also became less frequent (his claim was that he needed to enjoy his time there and he didnt want to be using the phone too much) - which kind of make sense, but it felt horrible! Like on some days we only got to message a few times a day, and its mostly the same convo that keeps repeating.. "hows yr day" "what did u eat for lunch" "are you gonna sleep soon".
SO BORING RIGHT!!! So one day, I mustered the courage and I told him that our relationship is getting boring...like we need to spice it up or make it exciting again...LOL then he told me that I was thinking too much, and I was like looking for trouble again.
Stage 3 of LDR
HAHAHA this is the most frightening stage of LDR i think....I became CLINGYYYYY. LOL can't believe whats happening to me.To be honest, I used to be quite independent, at least at the initial stages of our relationship. At that time, I can even not meet for weeks and be okay with it, and Jerome even have to come up with this "rule" that we need to meet at least once a week. LOL and look at me now, I became so clingy that i must skype Jerome everynight before I sleep. Oh and this started during or after the exam period..It was quite depressing as I stayed in hall almost everyday, and if I do go home, its only once a week or once every 2 weeks, and I would go home on a saturday and come back on sunday. SAD LIFE. Needless to say, I got homesick, and I would cry once I'm back in hall, and my only comfort was skyping Jerome. HAHA cause he would remind me that he also misses his family and that Its okay to be alone etc etc. Initially I thought the clingy thing was only a phase and that It would go away once exams ended and when I finally move out of hall. but NO, it stayed on, and i'm still clingy...constantly telling jerome that he needs to message me and skype me more often. HAHA and it got so bad that we just quarreled yesterday. But thank goodness Jerome, as he always is, patient enough to explain his woes to me, why he cant message as much as he is either in class/out/traveling.
Yea, so if you gusy have any tips on how to stop being clingy, pls do share with me. HAHA its not like a condition right? I really do hope its just an LDR phase that I'm going through now. Its been 4 months since Jerome left for Taiwan and I guess I'm more or less used to it now,but its just that sometimes I will really really miss him..and I'll get pretty upset when he cant skype me:( hahah yes, im an overly attached gf.
Oh!!! and did I mention? I'm doing my Internship now. It's an advertising agency and its been 2 weeks that I've been there? Can't exactly say that I like it there because of the work culture. Its like everyone works till really late and there isnt much of a work life balance. Futhermore, i think im more towards the people handling or sales part? I think I'll be more motivated to work, if theres commission involved? But oh wells, I definitely learnt ALOT about the work culture and the term "survival of the fittest". Alright, thats all for now, I'll catch up with you guys soon as I have to drag myself to work tmr.
xoxo
pattie
