Reflections

Its not exactly a good feeling, to see people rejoicing while youre in agony.


I experienced that first hand the other day. Even though he probably didnt mean it, and I know I shouldnt mind too, but I just cant help but feel lost and helpess and not to mention useless too.


Maybe what I fear has finally been confirmed, maybe im just being selfish and maybe im only concern with my own happiness.

But I know that I should be happy.Cause if he is happy,then im probably happier too.Maybe I just need to grow up, to learn to be okay being by myself...

I should live for myself and pursue all the things ive dream of. In life, we gain some and lose some, but im always afraid of losing, and maybe that might be the reason why im always sticking to the safe side instead of embracing who I truly wanna be.

This year's New Year is extremely meaningful for me because I believe that 2015 have alot more to offer and alot more lessons to learn from as well. A year older and maybe,hopefully more mature too


With love,
pat

post exam thoughts

I dont know if its because I didnt study enough or what...but I honestly felt like crying in the exam hall.


This is so far my hardest sem in my life...with 3 out of 6 papers that I took ended up with me not knowing how to answer the questions


Need time to self reflect

BangBang

 I've learnt something today....

You'll know it when Jerome finally wakes up when he catches on to the song of Bang Bang and Blank space early in the morning....

Even though the lyrics are some what inaudible

Meh

I just finish an exam......which was pretty bad.

Okay no


it was DAMN BAD.


Why must uni be so tough? And why must people be so smart? And why must profs be so mean to set such difficult questions???

Maybe next time I should answer in a super tough and complicated manner such that the prof dont understand

Haha and the world is so unfair cause she will only mark me down.....

Oh a sidenote,I wanna note down all the sweet stuff that Jerome has done for me esp during exam time aka my stressful period filled w unreasonable moodswings etc...haha before I forget them.

So lets start from...hmm idk when...but he is like my daily alarm clock la, both for naps and morning calls...Jerome is so nice to always tell me to nap and tt knowing tt  I will never ever hear the alarm in my sleep or I will resort to like 1000000 snoozes...he decides to call me when my nap is up and he calls me for morning call to ensure tt I wake up in time for my papers:) SO NICE HOR

He is also the solution to my hungry tummy!!! Always miraculously turning up at my hall with supper whenever im hungry

And he is also my faithful companion,accompanying me to study whenever im homesick and he always try to find me in school whenever he is free:)

Haha but im still independent ok....dont judge me


oh and back to myself....im utterly drained from the lack of sleep and info overload....actually sometimes I wonder...if we are so caught up with the pursue of grades..that we gave up doing things tt we enjoy doing...wont we forget to live?

Like I gave up dancing and all my other ccas and performances because I realised tt grade really matters ultimately...ultimately my gpa is gonna get me a job and my ccas arent gonna help much in it...thus after studying for like 14 years of my life...I realised tt we missed out on the process....learning should be an enjoyable process...not sth that brings agony and sadness and drains the health out of ones body...yet the sad thing is, we are all too blinded by the end goal that we neglected the process of learning....

Okay I should stop reflecting so much...

Think so much in the exam hall
finish the paper also think too much

Need to give my brain a rest


Bye!

currently in jail

Ive just started reading my 200 pages of notes for tmr's morning exam....and why do I feel like im in jail already??? Locked inside my room and probably chained to my chair so I'll stop opening my fridge for food....Sian....Maybe thats why I keep aging faster and faster....cause 1) I got no life 2) I havent got enough sleep since primary 6 I think 3) cause books are too smart for me


Even though ppl say I look 25.....(im actually 21)...but I feel like im 70 yyears old???? My hair is dropping, ive excessive weight gain, and I feel like my vision is getting more and more blurry?? SIGNS OF AGEING!!!!!




OKOK, I''ll come back here after I finish serving my jail time...hopefully get an early release this thurs after my paper before I get a break and chiong again for my papers next week....

Bye peeps!!

exams

When people say, it only gets harder year after year, well i think thats a REALLY VALUABLE advice. It really does get harder when you move on to year 2 etc. Here i am dying while i mug my way for tomorrow's open book exam....and in the mean time, dreaming of going Christmas shopping with Jerome after exams.


Cant wait to spend time with him before I lend him to his taiwanese girlfriends (haha just kidding)

I thought A Levels was the worst period in my life......seems like Uni isnt very much different.
Okay it isnt much different because I didnt drink 2 redbulls and 1 cup of coffee daily like in my JC pre-A level days ......but still, im drinking 1 cup of teh-bing everyday....so i think im pretty much growing fat...(gained 4 kg since the start of this sem)

Great job pat, keep up your weight gaining scheme






byebye!

Walao .....i was in the midst of typing a super emotional speech Jerome to tell him how much I love him and how important he is to me etc, and he decided to play an emoji game with me on whatsApp =='
Lets not friend him already

savings and future plans

Jerome thinks im an idiot when it comes to savings...and future planning. Tried to convince him that im not that of an idiot when it comes to this...but i think i failed. So i think i will get better luck convincing other people instead.


On a side note,exams are coming and im down with flu and cough...haha wish me luck for the finals k....cause i think i have 52 chapters to study? And i most likely havent touch them....or maybe i havent printed the lecture notes for half of them:'(

I think even God cant save me now
Oh wells....havent been in the best of mood lately,which i dont know why...and i just came back from pearlyn's 21st ( too lazy to upload pics)

And i have five 21st to attend this december and Ive got to start christmas shopping soon....So thankful i have Jerome at my side this christmas:) he can be my shopping slave :) hehe just kidding!!

And poor pat have got about 2 months left before Jerome flies to find his 台妹 in taiwan.

Haha he is going there for exchange...cool hur? While im stuck in Sg, desperately mugging for 1 more sem

But okay lah i think ldr also quite cool, like not everyone gets to see their bf on skype everyday ^^


Okay i gotta sleep soon,my alarm is at 6am in the morning....and i look like i just got punched on my eyes due to my dark eye circles....and they cant be blacker than the black youre imagining right now


Nights peeps
Tks for listening to my rant :)

Views on plastic surgery

okay,im just totally bored and disgusted by my essay assignment that i've decided to blog at this weird hour...


Was casually reading an article on plastic surgery on bong qiu qiu's blog and I realized that she actually look better before she had that surgery done. Or maybe she had one too many surgeries that led to her face structure looking a bit off now.

Well,i think plastic surgery is definitely a very sensitive topic to talk about and different people have different views on it

One thing that made me think of the idea of plastic surgery would be my eyes...I have uneven eyelids?Like sometimes i would have double eyelids and on bad occasions,they will become single. I've always wanted to change the way my eyes look and i've even thought of maybe getting something done when i go for my exchange in Korea next year. But now thinking of all the mean comments that the blogger received on her blog,coupled with reviews from people who have done plastic and regretted it,it made me think that maybe I should just be contented with the way i look? Like these kinda changes are permanent,and if i ever want my old face back,i might not be able to get it to its original form again.

My experience with mole removal kinda justified what i'm thinking now
Just to share with yall,i had mole removal done recently....i always had this mole at the side of my noise that i was unhappy about?

 Yea,see the mole on my left side of the nose?

 It kinda disappears when i smile though

This is the picture after i got it removed,see how even after i smile,it still remains there???and it got bigger?

Yea,so the sad thing is i went to some heartland shop to get it removed,cause its much cheaper than going to a professional clinic...those cost around $300 to remove it via some laser treatment,and silly me thought its too expensive to spend $300 on moles on my face..haha cheapo me..

At first,i foolishly thought that the mole was successfully removed,like after 1 week or removal,it was more or less gone,until about another week later,i realized that another mole has decided to come out of no where and plant itself further away from my nose ( means its more obvious) and its bigger as well....Its definitely less visible on camera,but its quite obvious in real life

It was quite bad i think,cause Jerome offered to pay to remove the mole again. He was like, "you look weird with that mole on your face, I pay for you to remove it lah" Felt super sad when i heard that,what happen to INNER BEAUTY??? haha yea then i went on to be pissed at him for awhile...until he mentioned that he was merely joking...(even though he sound really serious about paying for it to be removed) Haiz but in the end I couldn't stay angry at him for long.

I mean,who can stay angry at this kuku face of his??

HAHAAA! He always give that kinda face whenever he knows I'm angry...but it's okay,Jerome promise to pay for my botox when i'm old so he redeemed himself :)

Okay,i need to get back to my essay now

With lots of love

pattie

People come and go

well,I can't seem to fall asleep at 4am, so i guess im blogging again...


I reflected a bit,and realized that the people that come and go in our lives really do make an impact..In fact,most of them are positive impacts...I lost my first best friend in secondary school,she was the first and only best friend that I could not get over...She was the sweetest girl and i thought we were almost long lost sisters...However I realized that people change when they grow up..She went to normal academic, started hanging out with gangs, had tattoos etc...And that was when i realized that our interests were no longer the same..I tried convincing her to come back to the right path, to study hard and do well for O levels. But,she never listened..instead,we had a huge argument and from then on,we never spoke to each other again...I cried for days knowing that Ive lost my only best friend....but the most important lesson I've learn from it is that people come and go in our lives, and we just gotta accept it.

You can choose who enters your life,but you can't stop anyone from leaving

Next one is about relationships...people come into your lives,teaching you something new...And through this, I learn that yes,heartbreak makes you really really sad.But i've also learnt that you will not die from a heartbreak.... it may sting for a while,but after a period of time,people will pick themselves up and continue as if that person never came into their lives...Life continues just like before. Through it all, I've learnt to become a stronger and independent person..I've had positive influences that changed me from someone who never runs, to someone who like adventurous sports and even joined runners club as a cca in school...To be someone who live by the motto of YOLO, to be someone who forces herself out of her comfort zone to start to like sports.....
and lastly,to become someone who is no longer afraid of workouts and perspiration. I may not be a sporty person,but im working towards that goal....to one day be able to embrace sports like it's my second nature.


Life is volatile and you never know whats gonna happen next,instead of dreading for the worst,why not embrace today and live each day to the fullest?

haha enough reflections for today...
Actually i think sometimes i tend to think too much...just like how jerome says that im forever thinking too much into stuffs.

till next time
Love you all earthling!!

Heres an abstract from an article i just read

"Minimise the pain you feel by not giving away too much of yourself emotionally too soon.Love is not an overnight occurrence.It is not a word to be thrown around to someone you've just met. It is something that builds over time and bonds people together. If we let it. It is a risk to love. What if it doesnt work out? But what if it does?"

-Peter Mcwilliams

Drawing parallels to how Jerome and I communicate....Well to be honest,today is the 3rd month that we have been together and yet we haven't had any major quarrels so far.....Like how do i put it? Yes,just like all couples,we do quarrel,however,our quarrels hardly last more than a day,or rather a few hours. We are both vocal people,hence we like to talk it out instead of keeping our unhappiness within us. I am usually the hot-headed and emotional one,whereas Jerome is the logical and calm one. In a way we kind of complement each other cause Jerome listens more than he talk....thus after awhile of listening,he will begin to analyse what the problem is, and sooner or later, I will realize that I wasn't making any sense. People who don't know that we've only been together for 3 months,would often assume that we've been together for a really long time....Maybe its because we're still kinda having the honeymoon period Or that its because we are really close to each other? Or it could be both...From this, I learn that you can't just throw yourself into a relationship as if your whole world now depends on your Bf/Gf. It takes time for people to build that trust towards their partners,and while you're in the midst of doing that,you should have another life apart from your partner as well. One that you can be totally independent in,for example,your family and friends. These 3 branches of your life is equally important,and only if you're able to balance all 3,then will you be able to lead a really fulfilled life 

Ps: Its okay to be single too! Singlehood are times for us to be independent and to enjoy a little 
me time before you find the one!

USS Halloween Horror Night 4

Well as you all know,I'm a scaredy cat when it comes to horror shows or haunted houses. I didn't even managed to go through those minor ones during HSS or hall camps in school. I would usually cry before going in and those kind seniors ,seeing my pathetic situation,would allow me to sit out of them.


Haha so you're probably wondering why or how did i muster the courage to go for the one at USS HHN4 ,when its supposed to be really scary especially since the props and make up seems pretty impressive. Well the answer is,because I had my boyfriend along. Haha I guess going with someone you can really trust really helps to calm you down. Especially knowing that there is someone who is there to protect you when you're being attacked by "ghosts". This year's Halloween is especially dear to me since it is the first time I ever went into a horror house voluntarily.To be honest,i would never ever imagine that I would voluntarily enter or even pay to visit a horror house,because I am really a scaredy cat when it comes to these things, and by scaredy cat,i mean imagining that there are ghosts beside me when i walk alone on the streets after like 11pm that kinda shit. And I am afraid of the dark...actually TERRIFIED would be a better word to use.So you can imagine,how much balls I must have yesterday night to actually drag myself into the horror houses. Apart from that,it was exceptionally heartwarming for me,because my Boyfriend Jerome has decided to go with my friends instead of his original friends that he was supposed to go with. I think he knew that I was already hesitant about going and he probably want me to feel as comfortable as I can be,in case I backed out at the last minute.

Here are some of the pics!!

Hahaa sorry for the lousy pictures,cause there was a lot of smoke there and it was also taken with my lousy phone camera

I know i dont look scared in the pictures,but that was because I talked to the ghosts nicely,to ask them for a picture and to stop scaring me....thats why i can pose for these pictures calmly.

You guys must be wondering how I made it through the haunted houses. The number 1 Rule that you must abide to if you're a scaredy cat like me,is to CLOSE YOUR EYES. Yes it might sound stupid,but this can save your life, it can save you from peeing in the haunted house,or at least you wont faint halfway....HAHA! You should close your eyes the moment you enter.

But then again,there are scare actors along the waiting line,so that one I can't really help much,except to ask Jerome to fend me against those 'ghosts'. Okayyyy,I admit that I did cry initially along the waiting line cause I was so nervous and I wasn't expecting those scare actors to be stationed there as well.Thus I got the shock of my life when one suddenly pops up.

And you must be wondering how would I knw which way to walk and turn in the haunted house if both my eyes were closed ALL THE TIME?

Hahah this is the answer to your question...This was our formation when we went in...Jerome guides me where to go and he tells me whenever there are steps so I can open my eyes and walk up those steps.And in addition,see how his hands are placed around my neck? Yea so it kinda ensures that i am always with him and that i won't fall down at any point of time. Even though half of the time, I thought he was choking me instead and I almost died from the lack of breath HAHAAAA!! 

 Met Andrea who was working there yesterday

 Tried to force half a smile cause I was so nervous before entering the Chinese Ghost haunted house

With the nonsensical Bf

Us at the transformers ride

So,some of you might ask...Isnt it a waste to pay so much to go to USS if my eyes were closed for more than half of the night? Haha to me, yesterday night was much much more valuable than just the $50 I paid. First of all, I was proud of myself for picking up all my courage to attend USS HHN4 and most of all, I am forever grateful that Jerome gave up his fun of going with his friends and prolly his entire fun at the HHN4 to take care of me and to ensure that I am alright, plus constantly feeding me with food and drinks to make sure that I am not traumatized by the scare actors. And that meant so so so much to me, more than anything that money can buy.

Lastly, the 2 things that I really enjoyed at USS yesterday was the TURKEY LEG and the CIRCUS SHOW.....which I think is a must go for those of yall who haven't been there or is going soon.

Oh and the reason why I blogged so quickly,like one day after I went,was because the memory is still fresh in my mind thus I really wanna express how thankful I was for my friends and Jerome last night.

Till next time

love pat!

Relationship and the hurt process

I think life is really magical? Like how people take the initial hardest step to let new people they like/are dating into their life again after being hurt by their exes in the past...and knowing that at the point of time..things between them might or might not workout.but yet people choose to go through the possibility of being hurt all over again...than miss giving it a try and let the person slip past our fingers.

Even if it means it could only be for a short while...even for others, who probably knew tt they wont end up tgt in old age?

So the question is....what makes love so powerful that people are willing to brave through the entire hurt process for it?

Hmmm...isit for companionship?or the feeling of being in love,or just for the experience?

That, We will never know...and how do you know if the person who comes along is the right one? Isit the ecstasy they feel each time? Or the butterflies in tummy? Or the qualities that one looks out for? What makes people dedicate 60 years of their life with their partner? What is the glue tt holds them tgt? Hmmm maybe we're a tad too young for these deep questions..

 Maybe we are just living in the moment....maybe maybess

school sucks

Blogging at 3am not because I can't sleep, but because im too worried for my pitching tmr.

Took an elective called "intro to entrepreneuship" and it happens to fall on a saturday. At least back in student council during the jc days, we had a script for us to follow just in case we forgot the pledge halfway through morning announcements...but now, we have to pitch a business idea with a script memorized.


sigh,why does life just gets harder?


On a happy note,Jerome finally took up the challenge of  the boyfriend makeup tag  and to my surprise,he didnt look much different before and after makeup..haha I think its because he is too tan,that no amount of foundation can make him look whiter...Sorry guys,no pictures to show because that toot made me promise that he will only do it on the condition that we dont take any pictures or videos :)

Pls pray that I will remember my script tmr,it means the world to me




goodnight you all earthlings!!! Hope tmr will be a better day for you guys:)
Love, pat

I don't wanna grow up

Back to blogging again tonight!


To be honest,i have always been an immature and irresponsible person. I guess it's a habit that was cultivated since young? Since young,i've always been very reliant on my parents, be it in the case of decision making / financial matters / advices, i'll always seek their help on it.Thus i guess this makes me very dependent on people and i often get scared when i have to make decisions alone,esp major decisions in life. Tonight, i made a terrible mistake...partly due to my irresponsibility and inability to organize my life.But it is also tonight that i realized that i am in the process of growing up. I am definitely not that mature person that a 21 years old should be like,but i know i'm slowly trying to reach my goal.It is also through tonight that when someone mentioned to me that i need to get my shit together and think before i act,that i realized that maybe im too greedy in life?like i want more that what my plate can take.And because of that,i always end up being disorganized and  irresponsible as i don't fufill my promise to people. I know that it is also because of this that i disappoint people,and sometimes i feel like a utter disappointment myself. I have friends of my age,who have started businesses or are embarking on big projects or doing a major change to their life right now, and here i am wondering (and probably dreaming) how to earn big bucks in the future. Haahaaa maybe one day money will really fall from trees!! haha maybe if i ever do dream hard enough:)

On a sidenote ,i am really glad that i have someone to confine my troubles in, and i am really glad that there is someone who is leading the clueless me to the right path in life. Actually,i had a major takeaway from class today. My prof actually told us this.She mention that sometimes the person/partner that you're looking for in life, is actually the person that you've always wanna emulate or want to become. So in a way,unknowingly, most people tend to fall in love with the person who has the ideal version of themselves in life.


Haha!! As nothing is confirmed yet,i can't really reveal much to you guys...but i promise,i will update my blog again soon. As much as i hate growing up....coz life just sucks when you have more and more responsibility....in future,you'll have to think of family finances? family planning?? and career responsibilities???  But i guess, what doesn't kill you makes u stronger. So why be weak when you can be strong?


cheers!
pattie

life sucks

Gonna rant abit tonight,so pls bear with me.....


its been 1 week since school started and I feel like life has been drained out of me...
I'm always super busy running here and there or im involved in ccas and activities...which is quite worrying for a start as I havent touch my books at all.
Moving on,this semester,ive decided to go out of my comfort zone and hence I took an entrepreneurship elective.Hoping that it will miraculously help pull my grades up...but to my horror I just realised that this elective happen to fall on a saturday and there is this pitching graded session on 30 aug which means that I will not be able to attend color run this year. How awful can my week get...not only that..It also dawn upon me that hall 2 dnd falls on 29 aug...which means thaat I wont be able to go as I need the day to calm down and fully prepare for my graded pitching lesson the next day. Hahaa okayyy joke of the year! Hate that elective now...



Moving on......
Just some random thoughts about love...a friend  asked me this recently, what is love? How do you know if someone is really in love with the person or are they just in love with the idea of Love itself?

I was equally confused as well and I didnt know how to answer her as they both seem like the same thing to me. It was only till recently that I found out the answer.

Love is a very powerful concept,but I guess what defines it, is whether you wanna be in love with that one person only, or that you like being in love,thus as long as youre in love...who that person is doesnt really matter as long as you like him and he like you back.

And so the question is,how do you know which one you belong to??
Well,my answer to that is that you will know that you only wanna love that one person if you no longer have interest in any other people of the opposite sex. No matter how much more goodlooking or smarter or richer that person is. You no longer seek to look for a better partner because you already deem the one that you have as THE BEST already.Hence even if there comes a scenario that a better one comes along,your choices would still be the same. And maybe I guess this kinda draws a define line between people who jumpship and those who dont.


While those people who merely like the idea of being in love...more often than not, theyre just obsessed with the notion of love...and thus they are more likely to jumpship when a better one comes along as the bond that they have is not to their partner,but the idea of being in love....and hence if they think tt the other party is capable of giving them more love or showering them with more care and attention that they are currently having now,chances of them leaving would be pretty high.


Hence,in my opinion,it is really important to distinguish if you really love the person or youre just in love with the concept of LOVE itself...
Because you can fall in love with anyone,but that anyone could only be looking for that special one



Ps: these are only my opinions and hence, not everyone might agree on this

Cheers!
Pattie

 "A good relationship is when two people accept each other’s past, support each other’s present, and love each other enough to encourage each other’s future. So don’t rush love. Find a partner who encourages you to grow, who won’t cling to you, who will let you go out into the world, and trust that you will come back. This is what true love is all about"

Source: tumblr

missing you

Jerome has been to malacca with his friends for the past few days and I really really do miss him.

come back soon jerome! I miss you!!

Tips for insecure people:)

Hi everyone!


I can't seem to fall asleep,hence here I am, typing out my thoughts at 3am:)

If you've been religiously reading my blog,you would have come to find that I blog alot about my boyfriend.... Haha which I think its mainly because I only blog when I have inspiration...and also that Jerome is my inspiration:)

Honestly,I love the feeling of being in love....the feeling of being on cloud nine..the feeling of having someone you love to talk to you whenever you need them. And another thing I really appreciate about my relationship is that I can fully trust my boyfriend...to be honest, Contrary to what people might say about me or feel that I am..... I am actually a very insecure girl...maybe its just that I always put on a strong front,such that people always think that im confident.
And of course, being a naturally insecure girl, I would somehow expect alot of reassurance from people...however,in the case of jerome and I, I found out that the security somehow comes naturally? Like okay,maybe Jerome has been reassuring me in other ways that I might not have taken notice of,but one thing that I realised about us is that we really trust each other... haha at least on my side,I really feel this way:) There is not a single day that has gone by, that ive felt insecure with jerome! Haha is this normal??
But oh wells normal or not,it definitely felt good....like C'mon, there are much more things in life to worry about right?

Thus, to all the insecure girls out there,if youre seeking advice on how to be more confident in yourself or yearn to have more security in the relationship, my advice would be that you just gotta take a bet and give your all and trust your guy:)
Girls being girls, we do get a bit paranoid once in a while I admit...esp when you find yourself falling helplessly deeper n deeper in love with your bf. But sometimes, worrying unnecessarily can cause issues and quarrels in the relationship too..Actually I think the guy plays an important role in providing the security that gfs need...the way he acts,the way he talks, and the way introduces you to people etc, can really say alot about him. Sometimes it might not be your fault that you feel insecure,maybe its just the way your bf acts that caused you to feel this way...If youre in this scenario, I recommend that you should talk to your bf about it,tell him what youre insecure about and try to work something out...
Always rmb, the fundamentals of a relationship is communication..without effective communication,everything crumbles.....

Hence the most impt takeaway from this post is that,sometimes you just gotta take a leap of faith and stop imagining that your guy is flirting or cheating on you the moment youre not around them. Even if your type of love comes with pain,it also brought about an impt lesson with it...Once you learn that lesson,move on,don't ever look back or make the same mistake again.....

People grow along the way, people change ,and people move on.

Best boyfriend ever!!!

hi guys!!!
Its been a really tiring week last week as i had work and camps and hence, i didn't get much time to blog.

Feeling really happy right now because....

haha, I'll show you guys instead

Been wanting to do the 'Girlfriend does Boyfriend's makeup' video ever since it became so popular recently and all the bloggers and vloggers seems to be doing it as well!:) 

you can find some of the videos here!

So can yall imagine how shocked i was when Jerome agreed?! Haha i was thinking about it the whole of today actually,and i asked a friend of mine,if her bf would do this with her....and her first reaction was like "my bf would never do this with me!"..... And so i got a bit hesitant about it and i don't know how to approach the subject with Jerome....haha and so i tried to drop hints here and there in our conservations and GUESS WHAT! HE AGREED:) YAYYYYYY!!!! I personally thought that it is not easy for a guy to do this for their girlfriends,esp since their 'manly' reputation will be affected or something...haha but I'm really really touched that Jerome is willing to try out my crazy ideas:) And for that, I can finally fall asleep feeling super duper happy tonight!

On a sidenote, Jerome will be away for camp for about a week :'(  Will be missing him so so so much again. But, oh wells! absence makes the heart grow fonder right?? Pat will be good and wait for our next date k? I love you so much Jerome!:) You really are the best!

God

Currently in the midst of Ntu catholic camp when I reflected during a sharing session when a priest told us that everything in life happens for a reason...there is a certain timing why everyone is in our life.He also told us to love freely...not to be constantly afraid of getting hurt and hence we often end up burying that deepest part of us within ourselves and not let anyone enter.

And then I came across this quote

About the part of deserving or not,I think most of us do not have a choice to demand the type of love we want.I think more often than not, we accept the love we think we deserve....and I'm really glad I found jerome:) cause I know,no matter how busy jerome is,he'll never fails to make time for me:):) 

Wells,I guess love is all about simplicity,if you love simply...and love your gf/bf with all your heart....nothing is impossible! And thats one philosophy that I've always believe in...

So heres a shoutout to all the couples who are going through certain roadblocks in your relationship right now....nothing is impossible as long as you dont give up...no relationship comes easily.It might be easy to lose track of where youre heading,but always remember this, these people are planted in your life by God..dont chase away the plans that God has in store for you....treasure people and you'll be their treasure....

With love,

Pattie 

I didn't know the chance I took could turn out to be something that beautiful

Back to blogging at weird hours!!!


Just saw this picture and I thought it is kinda apt to update:)

And tadaaa....

Ive finally found someone whom I've love very very much and im lucky to have him!

Jerome is really one of the most patient guy I've ever seen and he is also one of the most sensitive guys that I know as well.He never fails to ask me what I am thinking or how I'm feeling whenever I seem like im dazing into space. He also never fails to put me before himself....for example,theres once when he came all the way from ntu to changi so that he can meet me just for supper and then send me home after that. Maybe that explains why we are so crazy about each other! Im really really thankful to God for letting jerome into my life:):) 

I remember telling jerome about my bad habits and tantrums  and warn him that these could potentially be a stumbling block in our relationship in the future..and he gave the most perfect answer ever! He told me that maybe in the past I just have not found the right one yet and he assured me that all things will go well with us! How can anyone be more perfect than this right??

And right now,theres basically nothing else that I could ask for...ive got the most wonderful boyfriend,got into my dream university and ive got the most beautiful family ever...

and once again I thank God for blessing me with such a happy life:)

I LOVE YOU JEROME

Till next time

love pat!

Oh and just to add.......


Im on cloud 9! I don't know why,but i'm just really really happy..and to be honest I doubt I've ever been this happy before..So happy that I cant sleep

HAHA but I'll try to sleep now!beauty sleep is important to pat:)





Love you all earthlings!
Nights:)

Thoughts at 2.30am

Just got inspired to blog when I came across this article about a girlfriend running a marathon for her boyfriend that passed away not long ago. I thought that article was probably the most touching story ive heard this month...and coupled with the fact that one of my best friend recently confined to me that she is constantly afraid of her boyfriend leaving her for his ex girlfriend as he couldnt seem to get over her.


and here are my thoughts about relationship and love......
For some of us,we didnt choose the people that we love, we just can't..because love is a feeling that you cant control. It just happens... that explains why some people can fall in love with people that they detest.While for some, maybe for those who are not emotionally dependent, they can marry for money or even fame. But whats the point of being together with someone when you know that you wont marry him or her or see no future with your partner...I used to firmly believe in this and still do. I personally believe in being confident before entering a relationship..Yes each relationship does teach you some things and some relationships are just there to make you stronger or to teach you a life lesson.But sometimes I think one has to think further ahead in their lives...Do you wanna make memories with anyone or only with your husband? Maybe there might be different memories created when youre with different people...but why waste your time with people who eventually are not gonna be in your life,when you can give all your energy and effort to the right one?Hence it is impt to think logically when it comes to love too...love can be bind..but to be honest,if one is logical, it might not be that blind after all....and my only advice to my bestie,which I know youre gonna read this...is that..do what u must do to protect yourself and what you think is best for both parties....a love that is not suitable for two people will only end up hurting both parties...be wise and sometimes,theres nothing wrong with following your head instead of your heart.


Till next time
Love pat!

Finally had time to blog after a long week,in case many of you didn't know, or are wondering why i'm always late on replying messages or did not reply at all,its mainly because im busy with work..... Currently holding two jobs during this holiday,One being a receptionist and the other being a telemarketer...Haha yea! Busy life,but i like being busy, i guess its a part of me.But im really happy leading a busy life,this way ,i don"t feel like my holidays are wasted,and instead of waking up late everyday,I spend my time to the fullest,waking up super early in the morning and only knock off late at night.

This post is gonna be an update on my S.E.A Aquarium outing with my bestie,Guan Wei, who happen to also be another fellow blogger,just that his blog is ALOT more popular and has many more readers.So if you guys would like to have another view of life,or are bored at home,pls do give this guy some support and just click on the link here to read his blog   http://www.limgw.blogspot.sg/

He basically is a lifestyle blogger,so you can expect to find recommendations of popular cafes etc.

I'm not the kind of person who will visit or rather pay money to visit an aquarium,unless i think if you go on a date with your boyfriend then yes,it might be a romantic trip,but otherwise,i dont see the point visiting it with friends cause it's not very cheap,and i guess if you've been to the older aquarium (the one near the beach),theres no need for you to go again. However, as Guan Wei's friends have all been to the S.E.A Aquarium and he was the only one who have not went,he asked me afew weeks ago,if I wanna accompany him there. And i told him that i already went before...(i thought it was the old one) but nevertheless i agreed cause i was having a period of downtime and i thought it would be good to go out to breathe some fresh air instead of being at home.

And me being me,was half an hour late when i met him and poor guanwei had to loiter around vivocity himself for a good half an hour before i came. And surprisingly,I wasn't being nagged at when i saw him,he only told me to walk faster,or else the aquarium would be closed by the time i reach. Instead of the normal monorail that people take to sentosa,Guanwei asked if i mind walking there instead...Thought he was nuts at first cause Sentosa and Vivocity is separated by a freaking sea ....But he mentioned that there is actually a boardwalk that not many people are aware of ,and that the view is breathtakingly nice,thus we decided to give it a try.And so ,for the first time,i walk to sentosa instead of taking the monorail.I would recommend walking instead of the monorail only if you have extra time to spare,and only if the weather is good because not all the board walks are sheltered,hence if its raining,you might get drenched along the way.

Here are some of the pics we took along the walk to Sentosa;)

We didnt check the prices prior to the outing cause we expected it to be around $30 max,but to our horror,the counter told us that it cost $38 per entry.Which is really really expensive,i mean even for an aquarium visit.Thank Goodness,we asked if there was student discounts,and we end up paying $25 instead of $38. PHEWW!! when i first step into the entrance,they were having some boring China exhibits and i thought Oh Man,this is what i paid for?? And by boring i mean this,

Haha,okay sorry only got 1 picture cause i could be bothered to take the rest..Doesn't this look like something you will see in like museums or something?No idea why it was at the aquarium either.

In the end,we managed to find the entrance to the aquarium...and i must say...the view from just beside the entrance is AMAZING...i've never seen such a big fishtank in my entire life.Enough of me rambling on, shall let the pictures do the talking

Thats the divers cleaning the tank i think

                                                            selfie with the fish

And as you can tell,the pictures are really super clear....(shows how clear the aquariums are) just that my phone cam is abit lousy.

I guess this summarizes my outing to the S.E.A Aquarium and i would definitely recommend for one to visit the aquarium at least once in their lifetime...This is really an upgrade compared to the old one and it is worth the money!

Ps: All photos shown are before any editing or filter cause i'm just to lazy:) 

Till my next post,

love pat!