school's abit stress these days and i can hardly find time to blog and chat online....i guess i've missed out alot these few days....i was just reading my archives a few days back and i realise this blog is almost as good as being dedicated to my friend!!! haha, it brings back many unhappy stuff....lol but fret not,frm now on,there'll be no more nonsense and i have finally looked upon this friend as purely a friend and nothing more!!! haha okay,now about my life...my best friend R just told me she was mesmerised by this guy cause his actions are so innocent and he has mesmerising eyes....hahah,isit true that innocent guys are really that superb after all?? i doubt not...i've always had this impression that the more innocent the person looks,the more capable he/she is able to be hurtful and bring disappointment....hahah omg what am i talking abt?? haha okies i shall hereby name my newly found bestfriends....they are cheryl- who recently turned into a mugger and refuses to go out no matter what...or ,unless we make it snappy.....haha but she's definitely a girl who can bring you smiles when you need it and as pretty as she is....she's always popular among people!!!next up,is Reneee...she's a stern women ...which is exactly what i need in my unorganised life...everyday she never fails to tell me not to be late tmr and also not to watch too much tv when i goes home...she's like another mum to me...but one good thing abt her..she keeps my life in order...she plans out what time i need to start revision and forces me to stay on track...she's definitely a girl whom you can seek valuable advices from....love her!!! lastly,theres JQ....he's a really shy guy who goes around liking girls and is tooooo shy to confront them...lol and its a two way thing!!! given his charisma..and his over niceness,,i can often imagine a long queue of girls lining up for him....plus he's really sweet and he would often stay till late just to chat with me or have a heart to heart talk....hahah guess what!being himself,he never fails to msg me motivating quotes and he's forever teasing me and trying to explain his version of beauty...his famous quote" beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"

OKAY! I THINK ITS TIME TO REVIVE MY BLOG....THINGS HAVE BEEN CRAZY SO FAR AND IM STRUGGLING TO KEEP UP WITH SCHOOLWORK,OUTINGS AND SO ON....AND SO FAR I'VE CAME TO A ROADBLOCK IN MY LIFE..THIS ROADBLOCK IS PREVENTING ME FROM MOVING FORWARD IN MY LIFE AND I CAN'T SEEM TO CONTROL IT....SO NOW I GUESS IM FACED WITH 2 CHOICES NOW,EITHER I FACE THE HARD TRUTH AND MOVE ON ,OR I CAN START EVERYTHING ANEW..ALTHOUGH IT MAY SOUND REALLY DIFFICULT TO RESTART EVERYTHING FROM SCRATCH AND RISKING THE FACT THAT IT MAY NOT EVEN WORK OUT IN THE END....I THINK IM READY TO GIVE IT A SHOT...AFTER THAT I'LL JUST LEAVE THINGS TO GOD AND YOU....IF THINGS ARE FATED TO BE THAT WAY,IT ONLY GOES TO SHOW THAT WE'VE BEEN WRONG IN THE VERY FIRST PLACE AND MAYBE THINGS ARE NEVER MEANT TO BE THAT WAY AFTER ALL...I SHOULD TRUST GOD AND BELIEVE THAT HE WILL MAKE ME STRONGER WITH EVERY PAIN INFLICTED....STILL IF THERES EVEN A TINY SPARK IN YOUR HEART,I HOPE TO IGNITE IT AGAIN<3

life's a bitch sometimes.....But i would say things are starting out pretty well for me right now...firstly im totally obsessed with myself..(don't ask me why because i do not know the reason)..And things are finally looking good for me...i did pretty well in my math test..a mark to perfection and next i did not do as badly as i thought for my H2 chem ...this strives me to do even better!!!Plus i have the help of my besties ,Renee and Cheryl by my side to cheer me on and to keep me on track=) I've also made a new friend Samantha,whom i really clicked with...lol i guess we'll be gossiping partners in no time...JC life this year does not suck as much as i thought it would...
well at least,not if you have your circle of friends always looking out for you!!

OMGOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS SO FREAKING LOOONG SINCE I LASTED BLOGGED!!!
HAIZ IM PISSED...AT MYSELF I BELIEVE,I MEAN HOW CAN I BE SO WEAK,TO LOSE MY CONCENTRATION AND MY MIN JUST BECAUSE OF ONE GUY??
A GUY THAT I CAN'T FORGET TILL TODAY...I TRIED MANY ATIMES TO FORGET HIM AND YET HE JUST KEEP APPEARING IN MY FREAKING MIND....OH GOSH I THINK IM GOING CRAZY..AARON,AARON,AARON HIS NAME JUST KEEPS APPEARING IN MY MIND,AND I CANT HELP THINKING OF THOSE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WE ONCE HAD,THEN I THOUGHT OF HOW IMMATURE I WAS THEN....HOW I OFTEN TOOK THE THINGS AROUND ME FOR GRANTED....AND THEN I FELT THE IMMENSE PAIN...OF MAYBE LOSING HIM AGAIN...I REALISED THAT I NEEDED HIM MORE THAN HE NEEDS ME...BE IT IN MOTIVATING ME TO ACHIEVE MY DREAMS,TO GET BETTER RESULTS OR TO BE A BETTER PERSON...TO BE FRANK,I'VE SINCE LOST MY MOTIVATION AFTER HE LEFT...I KNOW I'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE HIM AGAIN...BUT THINGS WILL GET BETTER WILL IT???GOD WILL SOMEHOW GET ME OUT OF THIS FIX AND THINGS WILL FLOW IN???OMG ,CANT BELIEVE IT,IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND IM STILL GRIEVING....THIS IS REALLY BAD...URGHHH..GOTTA FIND MYSELF SOME SORT OF DISTRACTION...BUT IM GONNA BE LIKE HIM...ALWAYS HUNGRY FOR MORE..and never satisfied