Views on plastic surgery

okay,im just totally bored and disgusted by my essay assignment that i've decided to blog at this weird hour...


Was casually reading an article on plastic surgery on bong qiu qiu's blog and I realized that she actually look better before she had that surgery done. Or maybe she had one too many surgeries that led to her face structure looking a bit off now.

Well,i think plastic surgery is definitely a very sensitive topic to talk about and different people have different views on it

One thing that made me think of the idea of plastic surgery would be my eyes...I have uneven eyelids?Like sometimes i would have double eyelids and on bad occasions,they will become single. I've always wanted to change the way my eyes look and i've even thought of maybe getting something done when i go for my exchange in Korea next year. But now thinking of all the mean comments that the blogger received on her blog,coupled with reviews from people who have done plastic and regretted it,it made me think that maybe I should just be contented with the way i look? Like these kinda changes are permanent,and if i ever want my old face back,i might not be able to get it to its original form again.

My experience with mole removal kinda justified what i'm thinking now
Just to share with yall,i had mole removal done recently....i always had this mole at the side of my noise that i was unhappy about?

 Yea,see the mole on my left side of the nose?

 It kinda disappears when i smile though

This is the picture after i got it removed,see how even after i smile,it still remains there???and it got bigger?

Yea,so the sad thing is i went to some heartland shop to get it removed,cause its much cheaper than going to a professional clinic...those cost around $300 to remove it via some laser treatment,and silly me thought its too expensive to spend $300 on moles on my face..haha cheapo me..

At first,i foolishly thought that the mole was successfully removed,like after 1 week or removal,it was more or less gone,until about another week later,i realized that another mole has decided to come out of no where and plant itself further away from my nose ( means its more obvious) and its bigger as well....Its definitely less visible on camera,but its quite obvious in real life

It was quite bad i think,cause Jerome offered to pay to remove the mole again. He was like, "you look weird with that mole on your face, I pay for you to remove it lah" Felt super sad when i heard that,what happen to INNER BEAUTY??? haha yea then i went on to be pissed at him for awhile...until he mentioned that he was merely joking...(even though he sound really serious about paying for it to be removed) Haiz but in the end I couldn't stay angry at him for long.

I mean,who can stay angry at this kuku face of his??

HAHAAA! He always give that kinda face whenever he knows I'm angry...but it's okay,Jerome promise to pay for my botox when i'm old so he redeemed himself :)

Okay,i need to get back to my essay now

With lots of love

pattie

People come and go

well,I can't seem to fall asleep at 4am, so i guess im blogging again...


I reflected a bit,and realized that the people that come and go in our lives really do make an impact..In fact,most of them are positive impacts...I lost my first best friend in secondary school,she was the first and only best friend that I could not get over...She was the sweetest girl and i thought we were almost long lost sisters...However I realized that people change when they grow up..She went to normal academic, started hanging out with gangs, had tattoos etc...And that was when i realized that our interests were no longer the same..I tried convincing her to come back to the right path, to study hard and do well for O levels. But,she never listened..instead,we had a huge argument and from then on,we never spoke to each other again...I cried for days knowing that Ive lost my only best friend....but the most important lesson I've learn from it is that people come and go in our lives, and we just gotta accept it.

You can choose who enters your life,but you can't stop anyone from leaving

Next one is about relationships...people come into your lives,teaching you something new...And through this, I learn that yes,heartbreak makes you really really sad.But i've also learnt that you will not die from a heartbreak.... it may sting for a while,but after a period of time,people will pick themselves up and continue as if that person never came into their lives...Life continues just like before. Through it all, I've learnt to become a stronger and independent person..I've had positive influences that changed me from someone who never runs, to someone who like adventurous sports and even joined runners club as a cca in school...To be someone who live by the motto of YOLO, to be someone who forces herself out of her comfort zone to start to like sports.....
and lastly,to become someone who is no longer afraid of workouts and perspiration. I may not be a sporty person,but im working towards that goal....to one day be able to embrace sports like it's my second nature.


Life is volatile and you never know whats gonna happen next,instead of dreading for the worst,why not embrace today and live each day to the fullest?

haha enough reflections for today...
Actually i think sometimes i tend to think too much...just like how jerome says that im forever thinking too much into stuffs.

till next time
Love you all earthling!!

Heres an abstract from an article i just read

"Minimise the pain you feel by not giving away too much of yourself emotionally too soon.Love is not an overnight occurrence.It is not a word to be thrown around to someone you've just met. It is something that builds over time and bonds people together. If we let it. It is a risk to love. What if it doesnt work out? But what if it does?"

-Peter Mcwilliams

Drawing parallels to how Jerome and I communicate....Well to be honest,today is the 3rd month that we have been together and yet we haven't had any major quarrels so far.....Like how do i put it? Yes,just like all couples,we do quarrel,however,our quarrels hardly last more than a day,or rather a few hours. We are both vocal people,hence we like to talk it out instead of keeping our unhappiness within us. I am usually the hot-headed and emotional one,whereas Jerome is the logical and calm one. In a way we kind of complement each other cause Jerome listens more than he talk....thus after awhile of listening,he will begin to analyse what the problem is, and sooner or later, I will realize that I wasn't making any sense. People who don't know that we've only been together for 3 months,would often assume that we've been together for a really long time....Maybe its because we're still kinda having the honeymoon period Or that its because we are really close to each other? Or it could be both...From this, I learn that you can't just throw yourself into a relationship as if your whole world now depends on your Bf/Gf. It takes time for people to build that trust towards their partners,and while you're in the midst of doing that,you should have another life apart from your partner as well. One that you can be totally independent in,for example,your family and friends. These 3 branches of your life is equally important,and only if you're able to balance all 3,then will you be able to lead a really fulfilled life 

Ps: Its okay to be single too! Singlehood are times for us to be independent and to enjoy a little 
me time before you find the one!

USS Halloween Horror Night 4

Well as you all know,I'm a scaredy cat when it comes to horror shows or haunted houses. I didn't even managed to go through those minor ones during HSS or hall camps in school. I would usually cry before going in and those kind seniors ,seeing my pathetic situation,would allow me to sit out of them.


Haha so you're probably wondering why or how did i muster the courage to go for the one at USS HHN4 ,when its supposed to be really scary especially since the props and make up seems pretty impressive. Well the answer is,because I had my boyfriend along. Haha I guess going with someone you can really trust really helps to calm you down. Especially knowing that there is someone who is there to protect you when you're being attacked by "ghosts". This year's Halloween is especially dear to me since it is the first time I ever went into a horror house voluntarily.To be honest,i would never ever imagine that I would voluntarily enter or even pay to visit a horror house,because I am really a scaredy cat when it comes to these things, and by scaredy cat,i mean imagining that there are ghosts beside me when i walk alone on the streets after like 11pm that kinda shit. And I am afraid of the dark...actually TERRIFIED would be a better word to use.So you can imagine,how much balls I must have yesterday night to actually drag myself into the horror houses. Apart from that,it was exceptionally heartwarming for me,because my Boyfriend Jerome has decided to go with my friends instead of his original friends that he was supposed to go with. I think he knew that I was already hesitant about going and he probably want me to feel as comfortable as I can be,in case I backed out at the last minute.

Here are some of the pics!!

Hahaa sorry for the lousy pictures,cause there was a lot of smoke there and it was also taken with my lousy phone camera

I know i dont look scared in the pictures,but that was because I talked to the ghosts nicely,to ask them for a picture and to stop scaring me....thats why i can pose for these pictures calmly.

You guys must be wondering how I made it through the haunted houses. The number 1 Rule that you must abide to if you're a scaredy cat like me,is to CLOSE YOUR EYES. Yes it might sound stupid,but this can save your life, it can save you from peeing in the haunted house,or at least you wont faint halfway....HAHA! You should close your eyes the moment you enter.

But then again,there are scare actors along the waiting line,so that one I can't really help much,except to ask Jerome to fend me against those 'ghosts'. Okayyyy,I admit that I did cry initially along the waiting line cause I was so nervous and I wasn't expecting those scare actors to be stationed there as well.Thus I got the shock of my life when one suddenly pops up.

And you must be wondering how would I knw which way to walk and turn in the haunted house if both my eyes were closed ALL THE TIME?

Hahah this is the answer to your question...This was our formation when we went in...Jerome guides me where to go and he tells me whenever there are steps so I can open my eyes and walk up those steps.And in addition,see how his hands are placed around my neck? Yea so it kinda ensures that i am always with him and that i won't fall down at any point of time. Even though half of the time, I thought he was choking me instead and I almost died from the lack of breath HAHAAAA!! 

 Met Andrea who was working there yesterday

 Tried to force half a smile cause I was so nervous before entering the Chinese Ghost haunted house

With the nonsensical Bf

Us at the transformers ride

So,some of you might ask...Isnt it a waste to pay so much to go to USS if my eyes were closed for more than half of the night? Haha to me, yesterday night was much much more valuable than just the $50 I paid. First of all, I was proud of myself for picking up all my courage to attend USS HHN4 and most of all, I am forever grateful that Jerome gave up his fun of going with his friends and prolly his entire fun at the HHN4 to take care of me and to ensure that I am alright, plus constantly feeding me with food and drinks to make sure that I am not traumatized by the scare actors. And that meant so so so much to me, more than anything that money can buy.

Lastly, the 2 things that I really enjoyed at USS yesterday was the TURKEY LEG and the CIRCUS SHOW.....which I think is a must go for those of yall who haven't been there or is going soon.

Oh and the reason why I blogged so quickly,like one day after I went,was because the memory is still fresh in my mind thus I really wanna express how thankful I was for my friends and Jerome last night.

Till next time

love pat!

Relationship and the hurt process

I think life is really magical? Like how people take the initial hardest step to let new people they like/are dating into their life again after being hurt by their exes in the past...and knowing that at the point of time..things between them might or might not workout.but yet people choose to go through the possibility of being hurt all over again...than miss giving it a try and let the person slip past our fingers.

Even if it means it could only be for a short while...even for others, who probably knew tt they wont end up tgt in old age?

So the question is....what makes love so powerful that people are willing to brave through the entire hurt process for it?

Hmmm...isit for companionship?or the feeling of being in love,or just for the experience?

That, We will never know...and how do you know if the person who comes along is the right one? Isit the ecstasy they feel each time? Or the butterflies in tummy? Or the qualities that one looks out for? What makes people dedicate 60 years of their life with their partner? What is the glue tt holds them tgt? Hmmm maybe we're a tad too young for these deep questions..

 Maybe we are just living in the moment....maybe maybess