LDR

well....I would be kidding if i tell you that my LDR relationship have been smooth all the time

Indeed there are happy times, happy when you can finally skype, happy when you see how the other party is having fun and enjoying themselves.


But things are not so smooth and happy all the time....
There are times when you see all those beautiful pictures and food that he has posted, and you cant help but feel a little left out? Its like you feel sad that you cant be there...

There are times when something exciting or something bad happen in your day, but you just can't tell your partner because somehow he/she might be traveling and there isnt data connection.

There are times when you're surrounded by couples and you cant help but feel a little lonely and wish that your partner will come back soon.

There are times when LDR can be draining when you skype till 2-3am everyday and you struggle to wake up for morning classes tmr

There are times when you miss the person so much ,you just wanna go over and hug them...but oh, you forgot that what you're seeing in front of you is all but a virtual screen. Even when you wanna reach out to him, you can't. Maybe the only place you can reach out to him is in your dreams.


No amt of virtual chat sessions can replace the real hugs and face to face chat sessions.

and here I am, wondering how long it would be, before someone get use to LDR.

Can someone actually get used to LDR?? Like maybe after a long period of time, will someone grow to like a virtual boyfriend instead?

Well, If you ever see those perfect LDR stories on tumbler or thought catalog....let me tell you this
They are LYING.... LDR is not as easy or as blissful as how it looks like on the internet...but i know maybe if you put in enough hard work, It'll work.

Can't sleep, and I'm deeply disturbed by the negative effects of LDR

Food Poisoning

I got to know of a SHOCKING NEWS today....

I cant reveal what the news are...but I was really shocked when i got to know of it...so shocked that i think i went into zone out stage for like a good one minute before i returned to reality.

And another thing, I had severe food poisoning today/stomach flu.

This is what happened...

8.30am - bought a pack of 6 milo from the supermarket in NTU (GIant)

1.30pm - started to have bile in my mouth...and i felt like puking..like those sudden churning in the stomach that you cant control? yea and I ran out of class and manage to reach the toilet in time to puke. Next, the diarrhea began to kick in, and I cant leave the toilet, like every minute that i leave the toilet, it felt like i was gonna shit in my pants (haha)

So i went to the doctor and he prescribed me some medication and I was so weak,i couldnt leave the clinic. 

Ended up sleeping in the clinic for awhile before i gathered all my strength and crawl back to hall

9pm - Mum and Dad came to visit me and bought fish porridge for me (cause i had no energy to walk downstairs to buy food (i needed the toilet every min)

Hahaha and whats funny is that they left me pampers...told me to wear it in case i soil the bed at night 

and yea! i just woke up from a long nap, and practically wasted my time away..and im mugging for my midterm on wed

Also, i did a bit of reflection....

like people's life can change any min,anywhere,anyday..

You can breakup

You can lose your loved ones

you can contact a disease or illness

You can get pregnant

You can become another person

You can lose everything overnight

you cant predict what will happen to you the next min/next day/next year,

but you can prevent or change the way you want to live your life.

Dont do things you will regret.. for example lazing today will cost you that grade you need in your degree audit to get your dream job in future. Without that dream job, you might miss knowing yr future husband to be, our whole life can change from a reasonably comfortable and rich future to a struggling household who quarrels over financials overnight..

You decide your future, so plan your life wisely 

Love,pat

Pineapple tarts

hey yall!!!

Im back!

I was a little emotional earlier on...and thinking about it, it was kinda silly actually.

I was feeling emo the whole night because Jerome commented that my pineapple tarts wasn't nice.

As you all know, I've sent some pineapple tarts and new year goodies to Taiwan as Jerome felt that the goodies in Taiwan aren't as nice as the ones we have in Singapore (which is like totally nonsensical) ...doesnt pineapple tarts and love letters taste the same everywhere??? Like they all use the same ingredients and its the same method of cooking it??

Yea and to be honest, that box of Pineapple tart was my FAVOURITE... and Its the only thing i'll eat for CNY and i can eat for years and not get sick of it. I bought this box of tarts like afew days after cny  (its a shop in Toa Payoh) and I fell in love w it, after the bakery had a roadshow in tpy central and i went to try out the samples they had put out. and i fell in love with it after that...If that is not love at first sight, i dont know what is...

And back to the topic, i went to get it,and because it was so popular,there was only 1 box of pineapple tart left..cause the others were reserved. After I bought it, to be honest i comtemplated if i should keep n eat it,while i buy another box from bengawan solo (donno if the spelling correct) to give to Jerome. BUT....after much hesitation, i decided to only give Jerome THE BEST.. somemore shipping costs are so ex... If wanna ship, of cos must ship more ex and more good stuff,if not waste my money ma (which btw, in the end Jerome' friend's mum happen to be shipping stuff to taiwan too, so she offered to help me ship them) ....

So you can imagine how sad i felt when he told me that the pineapple tarts suck :'(

Yea so basically, i couldnt get it off my chest so i decided to blog abt it...

Sorry if my blog also sound so negative or sad...HAHA thats because i only blog when i have something to rant..

Anyways, for those of yall who wanna know abt my how my LDR is doing??

well, its going well:) but sometimes i dont deny, i do miss him alot..but i guess, if you can get through an LDR..theres basically nothing else to be afraid of. (Maybe i'll do a blog post on how to avoid quarrels in an LDR)

oh and....you know how sometimes,you wanna express how u feel, but u cant say it to the person??

yea, Jerome doesnt read my blog...so i guess he'll probably not know how i feel abt those tarts...MY passion for pineapple tarts HAHA!

thanks for listening!

love pattie

stress

I wont deny.....

I dont take stress well...

Being swarmed with work now isnt really making my recess week better

I feel so breathless..

Think I really need to go for some stress management classes

Otherwise i think i'll probably get high blood pressure in future


Sigh...

1 month of LDR

Its been a month since jerome left for taiwan exchange and many of my friends have been asking how im coping the the ldr so far.


To be honest, there are some times when you feel lonely...or bored? Like there is no one to accompany you to cafes or trampoline parks or movies anymore. No one to jio for an impromptu supper etc.

while many people adviced that we can always turn to our friends embark these activities with. However maybe im different or whatsoever, I prefer to keep these positions special? Like I dont know how to put it but I prefer to wait till jerome is back to watxh a certain movie for example. Isit weird??? Haha like there are certain kind of movies that I'll save just to watch it with him when he's back.

On the topic of void...
yes the void only gets bigger n bigger as the days goes by. Ldr is indeed not as easy as some say it is..but it is not as hard either..

Initially I was very positive abt the ldr..thinking tt ive never tried being away from someone this long before..and I also wanted to use this opportunity to see if our relationship is strong enough to overcome the obstacles....

And then I realised. In an ldr, its more of a give n take relationship..on some days I might be moody and he would have to give in to me and reassure me. On other days, he might be the one who needs to retreat and have his own space, and I need to be understanding on my part too.

Its not so much of the cheating aspect here ( at least in our relationship) cause we are rock solid in terms of trust.


Yea, so our biggest problems are probably loneliness bah...like we are quite sticky n we used to meet thrice a week? Or more...so its kind of a culture shock to go w/o seeing each other for 5 months or more.

But I guess, if you can survive an Ldr then almost nothing will be more than this...


And for now, I can only wish the day of his return to come faster.


I miss you loadsssss


Love pattiee