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I saw him again...OR rather i saw his "twin"...at first i thought that person was him and i ran from the first carriage in the train to the last one,just hoping to catch a glimpse of him..but it was a disappointment when i saw that it was another person instead... and coincidentally when i went on facebook earlier on i saw many birthday wishes on his wall and i realised that it was his birthday today..well today certainly brings back alot of memories for me...and i was thinking in the train on my way to school,what would have happened if we can turn back the cloock and start over again..would i be that mean?will i love him even more? well im not sure,im beginning to get terrified... You will definitely not understand how apologetic i am towards you and sometimes i even wish that you weren't born in the first place.. there might be happy times but i can't deny that there's no nightmares too.. but for now i'm still hurting although you might appear fine...

Life is really unpredictable i must say.....and the thing is that you'll never know whose the next person that you'll fall in love with...It comes in Package too!you can never force love therefore when things do not go your way,you'll just have to pray and see what God can do for you=)I like you alot and i just want you to be happy... Love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own,no matter how painful the choices you face might be.... But still i never regretted liking you and no matter what tHe outcome might be i'll support your decision,thats what love is all about isnt it??

Pre--U Sem is really fun!!!its really one of the best camp I've ever attended in my entire life.My group mates were really fun and we had an awesome time!!!i apologize for not blogging since like i don't know when.....Haha the guys in my group were exceptionally funny and gentlemanly....I'll definitely miss everyone....Pre U Sem has given me an eye opener and I really learn a lot of things from there.I'll become stronger after the conversation with Michelle and I've learn t a lot of things from her too!!!I think IJ girls click easily after all and we rocks...I LOVE IJ!MUACKS!Patricia will learn to let go and she will be stronger than ever in time to come...I finally know what i really want in life and I'll work hard to achieve it!!!Although in life,there might be many back sets but I wont be beaten that easily and I've prove to you i'm stronger than what you think i am=)

Today was SR olympics!!i got sunburn DESPITE putting a generous amount of sunblock on my face..now i look like a tomato=(The cheerful event of today was that i went out with my clique today!!!it's awesome!!!we went to East Coast and we went to bowl.ALthough i suck at it and the ball keeps going to the drain but i enjoyed it!!i sort of blade a little after bowling despite the wet ground because i had my precious KAHYEE to hold me in case i fall...(aww so sweet right?)haha then finally we went to Parkway to eat at AJISEN RAMEN...OKAY THAT WAS THE WORST RAMEN I HAVE EVER EATEN...i spent 17 bucks on that ramen and it tastes like....umm i donno how to say ,haha maybe shit?haha jkjk..itmjust taste really horrible and that green tea is tasteless,i think they forgot to add the syrup/sweetener thats why...ewww! I LOVE KAHYEE JANICE AND AMELIA!!!

i still can't believe that im going for pre u sem!!!ahh its killing me...how long have i dreamt of it and now its true...haha plus we're gonna stay at NUS..my dream place!!!haha to update,i sang a song after my election speech and if im not wrong,(frm wat my class said)the whole school was cheering for me!!!ahh im so happy!!i was like trembling when i sang the song (when you believe) on stage...haha luckly i practice it hundreds of times with kah yee in Ij and i almost made her go deaf...lol well i guess i proved the fact that when i sing,the windows DOES NOT CRRACK afterall=)well but getting into pre u sem also means that i have lots of work to do ,not mentioning school work...im dying at econs=(well even though i got second highest in class but that does not mean that im doing well...okay maybe just for demand and supply topic...i suck at chem,why must redox be so difficult???its like learning alien language..tsk hate it!!AND GP TOTALLY KILLED ME...i failed my gp test...i mean how can i??from Ij leh must do IJ proud ma...hahaaha okay i shall talk about things i love now..i love going for mass!!shopping!!talking to claris!!!and ky,lia,jan and so many more...I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I MISS YOU TOO!!!my life is like IJ -> sr -> nus -> air-stewardess!!!i sleep/talk eat/think abt being a stewardess one day...i just cant wait to be one!!!oh and i love the airport too...haha randomness is getting onto me....

I'm tired.... I just submitted an election speech for ms toh to vet.JC is tiring and I cant deny that I miss IJ..ten yrs of school in IJ has definitely left lasting impressions on me...i feel a sense of belonging there..its like my home..haiz but all good things have to come to an end don they?haha and im equally nervous because in abt a weeks time im gonna have to stand in front of lets say 2000 people and deliver a speech?im gonna die of either stage fright or nervousness.Well i just have to overcome that and hopefully i wont screw things up on that day...i wanna leave a lasting impression on the people so they'll vote for me and instead of making them throw vegetables at me. okay first i gotta finish my geog lecture revision/tutorial by tonight or tmr morning(lol if i can get up)then i gotta do my chemistry and maybe start on the chinese video presentation...=( haha i can manage this...i know i can i just have to turn stress into some kind of constructive energy=)i'll try it

yay!!!its saturday again...school was really tiring!!i had student council interview on friday and its mentally tiring!!haha i had to think of all sort of answers to reply the teachers who were interviewing me=)and the questions they gave are like...wat do you think of casinos?wats the recent news abt?and which is more impt council or studies?lol i was so nervous when i was in front of them...searching for a reply...well with GOD's help i managed to pass the interview(lol surprisingly)hmm but theres still elections and elections are scary...=(haha i went for band practice after that and i was learning how to play the clarinet!I dint know my side reading was so terrible till yesterday.i could not catch up with the notes and i sounded really horribly when i tried to play a C on the clarinet....it was awful when the sound came out...lol fortunately Alex came to my rescue...he was very nice and he guided me all along like pointing the different notes to tell and telling me which part of the song are they at now...(lol coz i tend to get lost)haha its really nice to have someone helping you like he has grade 8 piano so he's much more pro than me!!haha and he even stayed back after band just to teach me how to read the score!!haha i really appreciate that alex!!haha when band ended and we had to keep our instruments,alex couldnt open his clarinet to dismantle it so i offered to help...lol guess what happen!!when i managed to open it in the end,a whole lot of saliva just splash on my skirt...lol i was like OMG my skirt is wet with alex's saliva....lol how gross can that be??lol but we ended laughing at each other and we went to clean up the saliva...lol it seems like he tried too hard to learn how to play the clarinet and ended up investing alot of saliva in it!!lol oh and after everything...i went to meet amelia at popular!!!and we were chattin non-stop...lol there goes my day!!!

AHH im finally bloggin again...like after how many months?? haha orientation was quite fun as in we had a picnic under the hot sun on the football field so i got sunburned!!its quite cool like you get red all over and you'll look like a lobster...Next we have to choose our cca and thats what im concerned about..like i dont really wanna join choir so im thinking of maybe band?or canoeing?although the seniors said that canoeing is really though like we have physical trainings and we have to run like hell!!But i like the water even though its like at macritchie where you see all the funny animals...yep so today i went for the council tea session..It was like an hour or so and we have talks on how isit like to be a leader of the school and wat to do for elections which will be held 2 weeks from now?haha i was like shocked?when i got the council form!!lol i think the teacher really made a mistake coz im definitely not council type and im so mean!!lol haha i wonder wat kind of leadership she saw in me man...lol maybe talkative?anyway im still considering on council cause its a HUGE responsibility and i dont know if i can cope with council and elections as well as A levels..and its really scary running for elections..like super scary!!!standing in front of the WHOLE school to deliver a speech or answer questions haha after that i went for choir audition and surprisingly i got in!!lol so im confused...