After a 3 year hiatus from blogging, ive decided to get my lazy bum to the computer to retrieve my long forgotten password to this blog. And reading through the posts from this blog since 2009 really bring back memories,as it seems like i seem to document every big and little milestones in my life on this blog.


There are two main reasons that inspired me to blog today.One being about my recent breakup,and the other,which i felt that there is a need to apologise to that someone,which i will elaborate below.
About my breakup,yes after dating Sufri for a period of time,we finally decided to part ways simply because we are not compatible for each other. Well,initially i couldnt accept the breakup, maybe because i didnt think that this day would come,where we are so different that it makes it almost impossible to tolerate each other anymore. An example of how different we were,I used to like to club,like to socialise and treat everyone as my friend.However sufri was different,he believed that its sufficient to have a small social circle and it meaningless to have so many friends as most of them might just be high bye friends. The second most pressing issue of our relationship was religion. He is a muslim and im a catholic.You must be thinking why the hell did we even get together in the first place,knowing that our religions are the exact opposite of each other.Well Initially,i thought that if you really love the person,you would convert for him.And naturally as his religion is of the same weight as his social class in society,it seems impossible that he can convert and we are only left with the option that i will convert for him. At first i felt angry,angry that i have to make such a big sacrifice,while he does not have to do anything..But i know he tried to make it up,by loving me more and by taking extra care of me.However despite this,we are really stubborn people and this led to us quarrelling more and more often...Sometimes we would even have multiple fights every week.

But upon reflection,the relationship indeed taught me many things,it taught me that the world is not as innocent that i think it would be...it taught me that even with love,different personalities makes it seem like even the universe opposed to the relationship, no matter how close we want to be,but because of our differences,we can never be that close.It also taught me that i should fall in love with people's heart instead of being superficial and going for smart and goodlooking people.Sufri himself has taught me numerous things,from the need to be independent,to not being bimbotic (which im still working on) and not being too gullible in today's world. To be perfectly honest,after the breakup,i almost became a victim of mlm and i even got scammed online when i tried to book airtickets from Skyscanner. These monetary losses really open up my eyes and made me see that the world is a scarier place that i used to think,and at this age,you really need to be independent and StreetSmart to survive. My last relationship definitely gave me an eyeopener to the world  and i also received so much care and concern that i never knew anyone was able to give. He deserved someone better,and i cant apologise enough for the hurt and misery i've caused him. But i really glad that he is indeed having a better life now and he has also updated that he found his true calling in life,which i cant be more happy for him to finally find his passion:)


The next section of the post,will be dedicated to ...lets just call him G.
He was the one whom was there with me while i was still hurting from my past relationship.He taught me to pick myself up and move on in life. He told me stories of his life and brought me to happy places to make me happy again.I cant thank you enough to express my gratitude for your appearance in the most crucial time of my life.I know how you feel and i really dont think i deserve you.I won't be able to give you the happiness that you deserve,esp not with my busy schedule in school. And i hope you will understand,why i did what i did. I know it was really irresponsible to leave things hanging and just leave like that,But i didnt know how to put it in such a way that will not hurt you,and hence i chose to leave. You can definitely find someone better and you will find that someone ,trust me. I'm glad that i was in your life ,even for that short moment,and i hope you'll only have Happy memories of us and move on in life. Jiayou G!!!


and with that,i shall end my post here.I honestly don't even know if writing this post was right int eh first place,but I guess blogging is my only form of therapy....Just like how haters are gonna hate no matter what

Till next time,
love pat