13 days to exchange

As the days pass by, I realised that jerome's departure for exchange is getting nearer and nearer...I begin to panic as I realised that I will no longer have that much time to spend with him.

I think I even went to the extent of being a little possesive, squeezing every possible free time from him to spend together.

Negative thoughts about exchange also starts to set in, how will our LDR be like? Will we struggle through this journey? Furthermore I might be going for exchange in year 3 sem 1, meaning that the both of us will be apart for about a year. Thats when the real fear sets in and I get sleepless nights these days wondering if the relationship is strong enough to withstand the 1 year apart. Will we get use to living apart for one entire year? What will happen suring this one year apart?

Despite Jerome's constant reassurance that things wont be as bad as it looks, I cant help but worry...with each worry engaging more petty quarrels between us.
That was when I realised that Ive been overthinking and paranoid. Each time, I fail to think of the numerous good things that Jerome has done for me and instead I only focus on looking at the negative side of him. Reflecting upon it now, I realized that ive got to be more independent and positive. I have to believe in myself and most importantly believe in him,that we will get through this together.Believe that the exchange is actually beneficial to our relationship and it will only make us stronger.

Despite all my negativity abt his exchange, jerome has never once blamed me for it....Instead he was the one with the bigger heart to blame it on himself for going on exchange. ( which is kinda ridiculous)

Seeing how narrow minded I am, it really made me thankful for having Jerome in my life....he is one of the most forgiving and easy going person ive ever met.
Always changing his plans and accommodating to me as I am always late for dates, from my endless whining and making him stay up late just to listen to my daily rambles and end up wasting his breath as i often end up not following his advices. Always puting me as his first priority and always offering to send me to school cause he didnt want me to take the long route to school. Always trying to calm me down or cheer me up after a bad day at work or school, and always trying to include me in his social circles as much as possible.

I know I'll miss you dearly when you're away for exchange. But on the bright side, theres 2 more weeks to goooo!!! Can't wait for our peterpan musical tmr!!
 ( haha and yes we're gg for it)  *fingers crossed* that it will be good:)

Thanks for listening to my daily ramblings

With love,
pattie