OMGOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS SO FREAKING LOOONG SINCE I LASTED BLOGGED!!!
HAIZ IM PISSED...AT MYSELF I BELIEVE,I MEAN HOW CAN I BE SO WEAK,TO LOSE MY CONCENTRATION AND MY MIN JUST BECAUSE OF ONE GUY??
A GUY THAT I CAN'T FORGET TILL TODAY...I TRIED MANY ATIMES TO FORGET HIM AND YET HE JUST KEEP APPEARING IN MY FREAKING MIND....OH GOSH I THINK IM GOING CRAZY..AARON,AARON,AARON HIS NAME JUST KEEPS APPEARING IN MY MIND,AND I CANT HELP THINKING OF THOSE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WE ONCE HAD,THEN I THOUGHT OF HOW IMMATURE I WAS THEN....HOW I OFTEN TOOK THE THINGS AROUND ME FOR GRANTED....AND THEN I FELT THE IMMENSE PAIN...OF MAYBE LOSING HIM AGAIN...I REALISED THAT I NEEDED HIM MORE THAN HE NEEDS ME...BE IT IN MOTIVATING ME TO ACHIEVE MY DREAMS,TO GET BETTER RESULTS OR TO BE A BETTER PERSON...TO BE FRANK,I'VE SINCE LOST MY MOTIVATION AFTER HE LEFT...I KNOW I'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE HIM AGAIN...BUT THINGS WILL GET BETTER WILL IT???GOD WILL SOMEHOW GET ME OUT OF THIS FIX AND THINGS WILL FLOW IN???OMG ,CANT BELIEVE IT,IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND IM STILL GRIEVING....THIS IS REALLY BAD...URGHHH..GOTTA FIND MYSELF SOME SORT OF DISTRACTION...BUT IM GONNA BE LIKE HIM...ALWAYS HUNGRY FOR MORE..and never satisfied