school's abit stress these days and i can hardly find time to blog and chat online....i guess i've missed out alot these few days....i was just reading my archives a few days back and i realise this blog is almost as good as being dedicated to my friend!!! haha, it brings back many unhappy stuff....lol but fret not,frm now on,there'll be no more nonsense and i have finally looked upon this friend as purely a friend and nothing more!!! haha okay,now about my life...my best friend R just told me she was mesmerised by this guy cause his actions are so innocent and he has mesmerising eyes....hahah,isit true that innocent guys are really that superb after all?? i doubt not...i've always had this impression that the more innocent the person looks,the more capable he/she is able to be hurtful and bring disappointment....hahah omg what am i talking abt?? haha okies i shall hereby name my newly found bestfriends....they are cheryl- who recently turned into a mugger and refuses to go out no matter what...or ,unless we make it snappy.....haha but she's definitely a girl who can bring you smiles when you need it and as pretty as she is....she's always popular among people!!!next up,is Reneee...she's a stern women ...which is exactly what i need in my unorganised life...everyday she never fails to tell me not to be late tmr and also not to watch too much tv when i goes home...she's like another mum to me...but one good thing abt her..she keeps my life in order...she plans out what time i need to start revision and forces me to stay on track...she's definitely a girl whom you can seek valuable advices from....love her!!! lastly,theres JQ....he's a really shy guy who goes around liking girls and is tooooo shy to confront them...lol and its a two way thing!!! given his charisma..and his over niceness,,i can often imagine a long queue of girls lining up for him....plus he's really sweet and he would often stay till late just to chat with me or have a heart to heart talk....hahah guess what!being himself,he never fails to msg me motivating quotes and he's forever teasing me and trying to explain his version of beauty...his famous quote" beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"

OKAY! I THINK ITS TIME TO REVIVE MY BLOG....THINGS HAVE BEEN CRAZY SO FAR AND IM STRUGGLING TO KEEP UP WITH SCHOOLWORK,OUTINGS AND SO ON....AND SO FAR I'VE CAME TO A ROADBLOCK IN MY LIFE..THIS ROADBLOCK IS PREVENTING ME FROM MOVING FORWARD IN MY LIFE AND I CAN'T SEEM TO CONTROL IT....SO NOW I GUESS IM FACED WITH 2 CHOICES NOW,EITHER I FACE THE HARD TRUTH AND MOVE ON ,OR I CAN START EVERYTHING ANEW..ALTHOUGH IT MAY SOUND REALLY DIFFICULT TO RESTART EVERYTHING FROM SCRATCH AND RISKING THE FACT THAT IT MAY NOT EVEN WORK OUT IN THE END....I THINK IM READY TO GIVE IT A SHOT...AFTER THAT I'LL JUST LEAVE THINGS TO GOD AND YOU....IF THINGS ARE FATED TO BE THAT WAY,IT ONLY GOES TO SHOW THAT WE'VE BEEN WRONG IN THE VERY FIRST PLACE AND MAYBE THINGS ARE NEVER MEANT TO BE THAT WAY AFTER ALL...I SHOULD TRUST GOD AND BELIEVE THAT HE WILL MAKE ME STRONGER WITH EVERY PAIN INFLICTED....STILL IF THERES EVEN A TINY SPARK IN YOUR HEART,I HOPE TO IGNITE IT AGAIN<3

life's a bitch sometimes.....But i would say things are starting out pretty well for me right now...firstly im totally obsessed with myself..(don't ask me why because i do not know the reason)..And things are finally looking good for me...i did pretty well in my math test..a mark to perfection and next i did not do as badly as i thought for my H2 chem ...this strives me to do even better!!!Plus i have the help of my besties ,Renee and Cheryl by my side to cheer me on and to keep me on track=) I've also made a new friend Samantha,whom i really clicked with...lol i guess we'll be gossiping partners in no time...JC life this year does not suck as much as i thought it would...
well at least,not if you have your circle of friends always looking out for you!!

OMGOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS SO FREAKING LOOONG SINCE I LASTED BLOGGED!!!
HAIZ IM PISSED...AT MYSELF I BELIEVE,I MEAN HOW CAN I BE SO WEAK,TO LOSE MY CONCENTRATION AND MY MIN JUST BECAUSE OF ONE GUY??
A GUY THAT I CAN'T FORGET TILL TODAY...I TRIED MANY ATIMES TO FORGET HIM AND YET HE JUST KEEP APPEARING IN MY FREAKING MIND....OH GOSH I THINK IM GOING CRAZY..AARON,AARON,AARON HIS NAME JUST KEEPS APPEARING IN MY MIND,AND I CANT HELP THINKING OF THOSE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WE ONCE HAD,THEN I THOUGHT OF HOW IMMATURE I WAS THEN....HOW I OFTEN TOOK THE THINGS AROUND ME FOR GRANTED....AND THEN I FELT THE IMMENSE PAIN...OF MAYBE LOSING HIM AGAIN...I REALISED THAT I NEEDED HIM MORE THAN HE NEEDS ME...BE IT IN MOTIVATING ME TO ACHIEVE MY DREAMS,TO GET BETTER RESULTS OR TO BE A BETTER PERSON...TO BE FRANK,I'VE SINCE LOST MY MOTIVATION AFTER HE LEFT...I KNOW I'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE HIM AGAIN...BUT THINGS WILL GET BETTER WILL IT???GOD WILL SOMEHOW GET ME OUT OF THIS FIX AND THINGS WILL FLOW IN???OMG ,CANT BELIEVE IT,IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND IM STILL GRIEVING....THIS IS REALLY BAD...URGHHH..GOTTA FIND MYSELF SOME SORT OF DISTRACTION...BUT IM GONNA BE LIKE HIM...ALWAYS HUNGRY FOR MORE..and never satisfied

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I saw him again...OR rather i saw his "twin"...at first i thought that person was him and i ran from the first carriage in the train to the last one,just hoping to catch a glimpse of him..but it was a disappointment when i saw that it was another person instead... and coincidentally when i went on facebook earlier on i saw many birthday wishes on his wall and i realised that it was his birthday today..well today certainly brings back alot of memories for me...and i was thinking in the train on my way to school,what would have happened if we can turn back the cloock and start over again..would i be that mean?will i love him even more? well im not sure,im beginning to get terrified... You will definitely not understand how apologetic i am towards you and sometimes i even wish that you weren't born in the first place.. there might be happy times but i can't deny that there's no nightmares too.. but for now i'm still hurting although you might appear fine...

Life is really unpredictable i must say.....and the thing is that you'll never know whose the next person that you'll fall in love with...It comes in Package too!you can never force love therefore when things do not go your way,you'll just have to pray and see what God can do for you=)I like you alot and i just want you to be happy... Love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own,no matter how painful the choices you face might be.... But still i never regretted liking you and no matter what tHe outcome might be i'll support your decision,thats what love is all about isnt it??

Pre--U Sem is really fun!!!its really one of the best camp I've ever attended in my entire life.My group mates were really fun and we had an awesome time!!!i apologize for not blogging since like i don't know when.....Haha the guys in my group were exceptionally funny and gentlemanly....I'll definitely miss everyone....Pre U Sem has given me an eye opener and I really learn a lot of things from there.I'll become stronger after the conversation with Michelle and I've learn t a lot of things from her too!!!I think IJ girls click easily after all and we rocks...I LOVE IJ!MUACKS!Patricia will learn to let go and she will be stronger than ever in time to come...I finally know what i really want in life and I'll work hard to achieve it!!!Although in life,there might be many back sets but I wont be beaten that easily and I've prove to you i'm stronger than what you think i am=)