Finally had time to blog after a long week,in case many of you didn't know, or are wondering why i'm always late on replying messages or did not reply at all,its mainly because im busy with work..... Currently holding two jobs during this holiday,One being a receptionist and the other being a telemarketer...Haha yea! Busy life,but i like being busy, i guess its a part of me.But im really happy leading a busy life,this way ,i don"t feel like my holidays are wasted,and instead of waking up late everyday,I spend my time to the fullest,waking up super early in the morning and only knock off late at night.

This post is gonna be an update on my S.E.A Aquarium outing with my bestie,Guan Wei, who happen to also be another fellow blogger,just that his blog is ALOT more popular and has many more readers.So if you guys would like to have another view of life,or are bored at home,pls do give this guy some support and just click on the link here to read his blog   http://www.limgw.blogspot.sg/

He basically is a lifestyle blogger,so you can expect to find recommendations of popular cafes etc.

I'm not the kind of person who will visit or rather pay money to visit an aquarium,unless i think if you go on a date with your boyfriend then yes,it might be a romantic trip,but otherwise,i dont see the point visiting it with friends cause it's not very cheap,and i guess if you've been to the older aquarium (the one near the beach),theres no need for you to go again. However, as Guan Wei's friends have all been to the S.E.A Aquarium and he was the only one who have not went,he asked me afew weeks ago,if I wanna accompany him there. And i told him that i already went before...(i thought it was the old one) but nevertheless i agreed cause i was having a period of downtime and i thought it would be good to go out to breathe some fresh air instead of being at home.

And me being me,was half an hour late when i met him and poor guanwei had to loiter around vivocity himself for a good half an hour before i came. And surprisingly,I wasn't being nagged at when i saw him,he only told me to walk faster,or else the aquarium would be closed by the time i reach. Instead of the normal monorail that people take to sentosa,Guanwei asked if i mind walking there instead...Thought he was nuts at first cause Sentosa and Vivocity is separated by a freaking sea ....But he mentioned that there is actually a boardwalk that not many people are aware of ,and that the view is breathtakingly nice,thus we decided to give it a try.And so ,for the first time,i walk to sentosa instead of taking the monorail.I would recommend walking instead of the monorail only if you have extra time to spare,and only if the weather is good because not all the board walks are sheltered,hence if its raining,you might get drenched along the way.

Here are some of the pics we took along the walk to Sentosa;)

We didnt check the prices prior to the outing cause we expected it to be around $30 max,but to our horror,the counter told us that it cost $38 per entry.Which is really really expensive,i mean even for an aquarium visit.Thank Goodness,we asked if there was student discounts,and we end up paying $25 instead of $38. PHEWW!! when i first step into the entrance,they were having some boring China exhibits and i thought Oh Man,this is what i paid for?? And by boring i mean this,

Haha,okay sorry only got 1 picture cause i could be bothered to take the rest..Doesn't this look like something you will see in like museums or something?No idea why it was at the aquarium either.

In the end,we managed to find the entrance to the aquarium...and i must say...the view from just beside the entrance is AMAZING...i've never seen such a big fishtank in my entire life.Enough of me rambling on, shall let the pictures do the talking

Thats the divers cleaning the tank i think

                                                            selfie with the fish

And as you can tell,the pictures are really super clear....(shows how clear the aquariums are) just that my phone cam is abit lousy.

I guess this summarizes my outing to the S.E.A Aquarium and i would definitely recommend for one to visit the aquarium at least once in their lifetime...This is really an upgrade compared to the old one and it is worth the money!

Ps: All photos shown are before any editing or filter cause i'm just to lazy:) 

Till my next post,

love pat!

After a 3 year hiatus from blogging, ive decided to get my lazy bum to the computer to retrieve my long forgotten password to this blog. And reading through the posts from this blog since 2009 really bring back memories,as it seems like i seem to document every big and little milestones in my life on this blog.


There are two main reasons that inspired me to blog today.One being about my recent breakup,and the other,which i felt that there is a need to apologise to that someone,which i will elaborate below.
About my breakup,yes after dating Sufri for a period of time,we finally decided to part ways simply because we are not compatible for each other. Well,initially i couldnt accept the breakup, maybe because i didnt think that this day would come,where we are so different that it makes it almost impossible to tolerate each other anymore. An example of how different we were,I used to like to club,like to socialise and treat everyone as my friend.However sufri was different,he believed that its sufficient to have a small social circle and it meaningless to have so many friends as most of them might just be high bye friends. The second most pressing issue of our relationship was religion. He is a muslim and im a catholic.You must be thinking why the hell did we even get together in the first place,knowing that our religions are the exact opposite of each other.Well Initially,i thought that if you really love the person,you would convert for him.And naturally as his religion is of the same weight as his social class in society,it seems impossible that he can convert and we are only left with the option that i will convert for him. At first i felt angry,angry that i have to make such a big sacrifice,while he does not have to do anything..But i know he tried to make it up,by loving me more and by taking extra care of me.However despite this,we are really stubborn people and this led to us quarrelling more and more often...Sometimes we would even have multiple fights every week.

But upon reflection,the relationship indeed taught me many things,it taught me that the world is not as innocent that i think it would be...it taught me that even with love,different personalities makes it seem like even the universe opposed to the relationship, no matter how close we want to be,but because of our differences,we can never be that close.It also taught me that i should fall in love with people's heart instead of being superficial and going for smart and goodlooking people.Sufri himself has taught me numerous things,from the need to be independent,to not being bimbotic (which im still working on) and not being too gullible in today's world. To be perfectly honest,after the breakup,i almost became a victim of mlm and i even got scammed online when i tried to book airtickets from Skyscanner. These monetary losses really open up my eyes and made me see that the world is a scarier place that i used to think,and at this age,you really need to be independent and StreetSmart to survive. My last relationship definitely gave me an eyeopener to the world  and i also received so much care and concern that i never knew anyone was able to give. He deserved someone better,and i cant apologise enough for the hurt and misery i've caused him. But i really glad that he is indeed having a better life now and he has also updated that he found his true calling in life,which i cant be more happy for him to finally find his passion:)


The next section of the post,will be dedicated to ...lets just call him G.
He was the one whom was there with me while i was still hurting from my past relationship.He taught me to pick myself up and move on in life. He told me stories of his life and brought me to happy places to make me happy again.I cant thank you enough to express my gratitude for your appearance in the most crucial time of my life.I know how you feel and i really dont think i deserve you.I won't be able to give you the happiness that you deserve,esp not with my busy schedule in school. And i hope you will understand,why i did what i did. I know it was really irresponsible to leave things hanging and just leave like that,But i didnt know how to put it in such a way that will not hurt you,and hence i chose to leave. You can definitely find someone better and you will find that someone ,trust me. I'm glad that i was in your life ,even for that short moment,and i hope you'll only have Happy memories of us and move on in life. Jiayou G!!!


and with that,i shall end my post here.I honestly don't even know if writing this post was right int eh first place,but I guess blogging is my only form of therapy....Just like how haters are gonna hate no matter what

Till next time,
love pat

school's abit stress these days and i can hardly find time to blog and chat online....i guess i've missed out alot these few days....i was just reading my archives a few days back and i realise this blog is almost as good as being dedicated to my friend!!! haha, it brings back many unhappy stuff....lol but fret not,frm now on,there'll be no more nonsense and i have finally looked upon this friend as purely a friend and nothing more!!! haha okay,now about my life...my best friend R just told me she was mesmerised by this guy cause his actions are so innocent and he has mesmerising eyes....hahah,isit true that innocent guys are really that superb after all?? i doubt not...i've always had this impression that the more innocent the person looks,the more capable he/she is able to be hurtful and bring disappointment....hahah omg what am i talking abt?? haha okies i shall hereby name my newly found bestfriends....they are cheryl- who recently turned into a mugger and refuses to go out no matter what...or ,unless we make it snappy.....haha but she's definitely a girl who can bring you smiles when you need it and as pretty as she is....she's always popular among people!!!next up,is Reneee...she's a stern women ...which is exactly what i need in my unorganised life...everyday she never fails to tell me not to be late tmr and also not to watch too much tv when i goes home...she's like another mum to me...but one good thing abt her..she keeps my life in order...she plans out what time i need to start revision and forces me to stay on track...she's definitely a girl whom you can seek valuable advices from....love her!!! lastly,theres JQ....he's a really shy guy who goes around liking girls and is tooooo shy to confront them...lol and its a two way thing!!! given his charisma..and his over niceness,,i can often imagine a long queue of girls lining up for him....plus he's really sweet and he would often stay till late just to chat with me or have a heart to heart talk....hahah guess what!being himself,he never fails to msg me motivating quotes and he's forever teasing me and trying to explain his version of beauty...his famous quote" beauty is in the eyes of the beholder"

OKAY! I THINK ITS TIME TO REVIVE MY BLOG....THINGS HAVE BEEN CRAZY SO FAR AND IM STRUGGLING TO KEEP UP WITH SCHOOLWORK,OUTINGS AND SO ON....AND SO FAR I'VE CAME TO A ROADBLOCK IN MY LIFE..THIS ROADBLOCK IS PREVENTING ME FROM MOVING FORWARD IN MY LIFE AND I CAN'T SEEM TO CONTROL IT....SO NOW I GUESS IM FACED WITH 2 CHOICES NOW,EITHER I FACE THE HARD TRUTH AND MOVE ON ,OR I CAN START EVERYTHING ANEW..ALTHOUGH IT MAY SOUND REALLY DIFFICULT TO RESTART EVERYTHING FROM SCRATCH AND RISKING THE FACT THAT IT MAY NOT EVEN WORK OUT IN THE END....I THINK IM READY TO GIVE IT A SHOT...AFTER THAT I'LL JUST LEAVE THINGS TO GOD AND YOU....IF THINGS ARE FATED TO BE THAT WAY,IT ONLY GOES TO SHOW THAT WE'VE BEEN WRONG IN THE VERY FIRST PLACE AND MAYBE THINGS ARE NEVER MEANT TO BE THAT WAY AFTER ALL...I SHOULD TRUST GOD AND BELIEVE THAT HE WILL MAKE ME STRONGER WITH EVERY PAIN INFLICTED....STILL IF THERES EVEN A TINY SPARK IN YOUR HEART,I HOPE TO IGNITE IT AGAIN<3

life's a bitch sometimes.....But i would say things are starting out pretty well for me right now...firstly im totally obsessed with myself..(don't ask me why because i do not know the reason)..And things are finally looking good for me...i did pretty well in my math test..a mark to perfection and next i did not do as badly as i thought for my H2 chem ...this strives me to do even better!!!Plus i have the help of my besties ,Renee and Cheryl by my side to cheer me on and to keep me on track=) I've also made a new friend Samantha,whom i really clicked with...lol i guess we'll be gossiping partners in no time...JC life this year does not suck as much as i thought it would...
well at least,not if you have your circle of friends always looking out for you!!

OMGOSH I CAN'T BELIEVE ITS SO FREAKING LOOONG SINCE I LASTED BLOGGED!!!
HAIZ IM PISSED...AT MYSELF I BELIEVE,I MEAN HOW CAN I BE SO WEAK,TO LOSE MY CONCENTRATION AND MY MIN JUST BECAUSE OF ONE GUY??
A GUY THAT I CAN'T FORGET TILL TODAY...I TRIED MANY ATIMES TO FORGET HIM AND YET HE JUST KEEP APPEARING IN MY FREAKING MIND....OH GOSH I THINK IM GOING CRAZY..AARON,AARON,AARON HIS NAME JUST KEEPS APPEARING IN MY MIND,AND I CANT HELP THINKING OF THOSE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES WE ONCE HAD,THEN I THOUGHT OF HOW IMMATURE I WAS THEN....HOW I OFTEN TOOK THE THINGS AROUND ME FOR GRANTED....AND THEN I FELT THE IMMENSE PAIN...OF MAYBE LOSING HIM AGAIN...I REALISED THAT I NEEDED HIM MORE THAN HE NEEDS ME...BE IT IN MOTIVATING ME TO ACHIEVE MY DREAMS,TO GET BETTER RESULTS OR TO BE A BETTER PERSON...TO BE FRANK,I'VE SINCE LOST MY MOTIVATION AFTER HE LEFT...I KNOW I'LL NEVER FIND SOMEONE LIKE HIM AGAIN...BUT THINGS WILL GET BETTER WILL IT???GOD WILL SOMEHOW GET ME OUT OF THIS FIX AND THINGS WILL FLOW IN???OMG ,CANT BELIEVE IT,IT'S BEEN A YEAR AND IM STILL GRIEVING....THIS IS REALLY BAD...URGHHH..GOTTA FIND MYSELF SOME SORT OF DISTRACTION...BUT IM GONNA BE LIKE HIM...ALWAYS HUNGRY FOR MORE..and never satisfied

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I saw him again...OR rather i saw his "twin"...at first i thought that person was him and i ran from the first carriage in the train to the last one,just hoping to catch a glimpse of him..but it was a disappointment when i saw that it was another person instead... and coincidentally when i went on facebook earlier on i saw many birthday wishes on his wall and i realised that it was his birthday today..well today certainly brings back alot of memories for me...and i was thinking in the train on my way to school,what would have happened if we can turn back the cloock and start over again..would i be that mean?will i love him even more? well im not sure,im beginning to get terrified... You will definitely not understand how apologetic i am towards you and sometimes i even wish that you weren't born in the first place.. there might be happy times but i can't deny that there's no nightmares too.. but for now i'm still hurting although you might appear fine...